The Meltdown Project.....? Talk??????

"rar didn't you, like, rar the meltdown project is four years old, you already talked about it, you, why are, why is?????? huh?????"

I,,, LISTEN,,,, I was rewatching the Meltdown Project (along with a lot of my old amvs) and I went to check out the page I'd made for it because I wanted some cool insight on the video (it has been four years) and discovered for the most part the commentary just consisted of "lol I forget"

So here I am salvaging everything I remember from four/five years ago and just plain Thoughts I Have Now about the Meltdown Project.

Cool.

Dead Inside Endgame?! - Namiku battle (video breakdown)

Alright.

You may or may not remember how I had a short 30 second amv to go with both the SoShad and Namiku battle for the end of Dead Inside

Well, I was rewatching the Namiku one again on a whim

And two things about it struck me

1) It was really good, and I'd chosen a lot of good moments to convey what happened in that battle

2) A lot of these good moments go by wayyyyy too fast for anyone to really see (and is potentially hard to watch because the images flash, and if it hurts my eyes when watching, it's gotta be a lot worse for other people, especially those with epilepsy)


So

I thought I'd do a play by play breakdown of what's going on in the video

((The only other option was upload a slow mo version but even then the images go by to fast, also, then it'd have to go w/o music, and, this seemed easier + gave me the chance to talk a lot about it and really tie it in with the battle))


Here's the video to watch again, if you'd like (mega epilepsy warning though)





And the breakdown of it will be below the cut!!!

ATR Chapter 23

Besides another shameless plug for Earthbound (I'm almost finished with it it's really good it's only ten bucks on the wii u eshop) I don't have much to say.

Instead of a playlist, have this video I found on tumblr.



It's not as odd as it might look trrruuuust me it's fantastic and hilarious it's just got an odd frame that's been taken as the thumbnail. Please please please watch it I was cackling at it for a good thirty minutes.

(tumblr post it was taken from)

Chapter Time

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Further notes under the cut

8/13/14 (chapter 239 commentary)

Happy AkuRokuShi day folks




Have an AMV

Uhm if you want I (sorta) liveblogged the Days Movie, and general AkuRokuShi feels from today are all under the 81314 tag on my tumblr
if you want 'em

If you want a playlist, there's this one, and this one that popped up on my tumblr dash while writing this blog

Chapter time then, I guess

I said I had a Namiku AMV (ch232)

I wanna talk about the AMV for like. four seconds. And that's just real quick pointing out the bit at 0:14 which is like my fave part--though all of this is good

Namine being rewritten and 37 and L being like "frik yeah" like the sadistic meanies they are

bye

Chapter Time

Crying about SoShad (ch231 commentary)

Here I am to ruin everyone with SoShad feels you ready?

I am



This is the AMV I made for the SoShad battle. Don't worry. the Namiku battle gets one too

all art can be found here

except this one picture of Sora smiling

The rest are recolored manga panels colored by me personally

If you need music suggestions there's the entire mix I made for this battle, or very specifically the songs in the ch231 tag (I hate everything about you, King for a Day, and Props & Mayhem)

Or if you need songs with no lyrics
this string quartet cover of Linkin Park's Crawling (and potentially the rest of the album?)
or Tragic Dragon by TSFH

There's also this beautiful song--The Deer, by Woodkid--but after like the first minute it stops with the somber tone this chapter needs

Chapter 227 commentary

right so I just plotted out (in detail) the "epilogue" of Dead Inside--aka the last ten chapters that wrap it up
and it's really
surreal
I can't believe I'm doing this

in other news I've talked about Stupid Mario Brothers and I'm not going to ramble long but Richie's had a "sequel" series to it running called Plumber Knight Returns. and. I think. I think the Koopa has secretly been Shadow Mario all along and. That's. that's interesting..


REGARDLESS have a Namora AMV with reaaallyyyy pretty coloring


there's like.... a 10% chance I wanted to show you a different (SoKai) video instead that was uploaded like right at the same time but.... I have now started a Star Wars marathon and can't check. haha. If it turns out I wanna share that one too I will next update

Chapter time

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Ah yes I hate this chapter

As in I lovee what’s going on but this stupid shadow boy and his feels

I’m kidding I love this chapter I love this plot point it was supposed to be lame Kairi was supposed to stay behind but then I was like b UT WHAT IF SHE CAME WITH. WHAT IF KAIRI WAS THERE

I literally went through all of endgame asking myself “ok that’s great but how much greater would it be if Kairi was there, too?”

Literally

Of course you’re like “but Shad sent Kairi back to the islands how is she playing a role in endgame?”

Shhhhh

Shhh my readers

Shh

Kairi was going to think the “well I don’t even know what’s wrong how am I supposed to know if I can help or not” but then I remembered she’s a very verbal person and there was no reason she SHOULDN’T say it aloud

Also I’ve fallen out of using thoughts and it felt weird to have that be a thought right there

I mean it’s really dumb of me to have fallen out of using thoughts but. Yanno.

            “It’s ‘dangerous’” kairi rolls her eyes so massively her neck about snaps

My brainstorms are gold

Sora wanted to call Kairi his girlfriend but I was like no

This kinda made it in—but not in full. The full quote is gold:

“I was trying to spare your feelings—give you one last sliver of hope that your hero would come home to you, when he won’t. this is where I strangle the life out of him, and trust me, princess, it’ll be too violent for your pretty little eyes to handle”

IT’S JUST I FORGOT ABOUT IT UNTIL LIKE THE LAST SECOND SO I HAD TO edit,,,, it in,,,,, lame,,,,,

Okay so I scrapped antiform entirely because it ended up being easier on the flow for a loooooot of reasons

Also I cut out a lot of the shadkai arguemetn but I’ll probably post original drafts to ASAS pretty soon here—original drafts are easier than extra chapters because they’re already written I just have to preface them as “I cut this because –insert reasons here-”

Kairi was going to conclude that Sora was the “friend” Shad had been looking for but. Flow when I rewrote it. sigh.

she also asked Shad "do you know Sora?" and I laughed about it on tumblr but that got cut too. alas.

Chapter 219 Commentary

Oh gosh so I just finished watching FullMetal Alchemist
Good anime
gooooooooooood anime

I needed more brother feels in my life + Wrath. Wrath. hng I love Wrath

I contemplated an AU where Wrath showed up in my universe--which was largely self-indulgent and just venting feels. You can read it's details here

If you wanna read general thoughts/liveblogging FMA that's here

Me 'n Riku also had an argument about me "adopting" Wrath if you want that, too


ANYHOO!! I'd share an FMA mix but I actually need to share this KH AMV instead because it's absolute gorgeous perfection
Expect an FMA mix next time




Watch this wonderful AMV it's wonderful...... wonderful......


Anyhoo

read the chapter here

no tumblr tag bc there was only one post and I'll mention it here anyway

Vexen is handling being kidnapped rather well

I actually had a thought of Vexen + Alpha editing some sort of file on the program—be it an actual template for a replica or just a plain old word document

And they’d talk back and forth on it just by editing it and saving it because the computers between twntw and co are connected so they could access it and it would display changes

It'd be like talking through google docs

"For some reason I’m imagining Xemnas in his Zebra suit and I just…. okay then brain. Okay."

OKAY OKAY SO I READ THIS SENTENCE AND IT’S ALREADY WEIRD ENOUGH BUT MY BRAIN READ ZEBRA AS ZELDA AND THEN WHEN I LOOKED AT IT AGAIN IN COMBINATION WITH SUIT I READ ZERO SUIT AND I WAS LIKE OKAY WAS I TALKING ABOUT ONE OF MY SSB BAGKGROUDN THAT I HAVE RN OR??? WHAT?? OH. ZEBRA. XEMNAS. OH

OH

I wasn’t planning on going through with the “xehanort was gonna use kingdom hearts to make clones of himself” thing in my fic but
I’ve actually thrown in a reference to such in this chapter because, like, what the heck else did they want kingdom hearts for? ultimate power?

I’m laughing Sora’s actually ahead of Riku in terms of where they are in the castle bc Riku started at the beginning and Sora started halfway through

What’s funny is I don’t say berserkers but I mean berserkers and in kh canon both riku and mickey have taken berserkers down in one hit

Or Riku did in one hit and Mickey did in one hit in my fic

I think that’s it

But it’s still amusing like I know some of that is just ~gameplay~ vs ~cutscenes that need to take much less time~

But it’s amusing

THOUGH TECHNICALLY SORA IS ONLY KH1 MAYBE COM LEVELS HE’S NOT ANYWHERE NEAR ENDING-OF-KH2 LEVELS LIKE. I wouldn’t put him any farther than beginning-of-kh2 levels and even then I’m not sure if I’m even comfortable saying middle-of-CoM levels

Ending of Kh1 levels thooooo

Looking at timing you may think “fifteen seconds isn’t enough time!!!” but in reality it takes maybe five seconds to execute a full combo (even when I have no clue how to actually fight) so 15 seconds is actually a little overkill 

WHICH IS WHY I CHANGED IT TO TEN SECONDS yay

This battle was supposed to be like an RPG or FF style battle system. FF7. wait no turn based so yeah basically any rpg it's not a specific timer based it's 

I MEAN IT'S BASED ON TIME but you don't have a time bar which counts down and THEN you attack which doesn't always guarantee getting an attack in before an enemy can the enemy sometimes can attack twice and you can still input commands while being attacked if I remember FF7 correctly

but yeah it's general turn based battle SIMILAR TO FF7 and more like a Paper Mario or other Mario RPG game tho??? I think turn battles are generally used in most RPGs I'm rambling

IN CONCEPT THIS BATTLE IS LIKE A TURN BASED RPG BATTLE but lol who wants to actually write that out

I mean I wrote some of it out in like the next chapter but it didn't get written out like a turn based battle??

If this were a video game it'd play like a turn based battle though

I'D SAY MOVING ON but that was actually,,,,,,,,,, it,,,,,,,,,,, yay

Chapter 207

Okay so,,, remember,,, the Razia's Shadow musical I've been yapping about??

I found a group who adapted it to a live performance (it was NOT a live performance originally) and wow is it good




This is just part one but the related videos should lead you to the rest of the musical

Ah my two favorite acts are The Spider and the Lamps (in part 2) and Meet the King (in part 4)

The Spider and the Lamps is an obvious choice--though the acting only made the song better (tho imo they could've had a better voice for the spider but eh)
and I don't like Meet the King as a song but wow it was incredibly funny on stage

ANYWAY. I REALLY SUGGEST WATCHING IT.
(Tho the story does make slightly more sense if you listen to the original album because you can actually hear all the words--don't be afraid to have to look up the lyrics tho. I had to. Wikipedia also has a nice synopsis of the plot if you're super confused)

CHAPTER TIME

bc if it didn't go up today you really actually wouldn't get it until Monday (unless I'd remembered tomorrow but chances of that are sorta slim)

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I was gonna write Goofy reporting to Mickey but tbh I think I just won’t. I was all iffy about writing it and figured since Mickey’s just going to tell Sora and Minnie in all of three minutes that Goofy’s reported seeing things then hmm I guess I don’t actually have to write Goofy reporting he’s been seeing things

The only slightly important thing I can think of that would've come from it is Goofy saying “it’s been lurking a lot around Sora’s room” 

besides that still technically made it in so

I was gonna have a thing about Sora and Castles too but he’s been in a Castle before HB was a Castle and so was CO so uh

I may start portraying Daisy as House of Mouse Daisy you can’t stop me

My Sora is actually polite and well-mannered can you BELIEVE that?

Like canon Sora is v much a little blunt about everything but he was raised on an island and “how do you proper social interaction? With important people? Hmmmm I have no clue” plus he also is very  used to saying what’s on his mind/heart which isn’t always the tactful thing to say. Sora lacks tact. That’s what it is.

My Sora however was literally fed fantasy novels for breakfast as a kid and knows a lot about at least the concept of royalty and that they should be treated well so he’s pretty good around them at least (I haven’t been paying close attention to how he is around anyone else nor have I been making a conscious decision to write him a specific way in this area until like rn with him and royalty)

I was so conflicted about what Minnie was going to say she either is really mean about Mickey and even if she’s joking it’s still unlike her or she’s really really conceited sounding almost and that’s not her either

Finally I fixed it tho but trust me I went through like a bajillion different ideas before i finally found something that wasn't obnoxiously mean to Mickey or incredibly conceited

Like I’ve said a million times before I’m fairly positive that Minnie does all the actually important stuff while Mickey’s just kinda there if you watched house of mouse that’s how they did it and HE REALLY IS a big fat worrywart

There was this one episode where like a million things went wrong and he started panicking “oh know the power’s out and pete’s gonna shut us down not to mention all these unpaid bills” and Minnie was just like “MICKEY PLEASE its’ fine I will handle it you keep the show running okay ok”

(if you haven’t watched house of mouse you definitely should here look handy link to all of theepisodes for free online REWATCHING IT WAS LITERALLY THE BEST DECISION I COULD’VE MADE AND I WILL ASSERT THAT TIL MY DEATH)

And here like this is the House of Mouse wiki page: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_of_Mouse

It says on Minnie: “Minnie Mouse is Mickey's girlfriend, show planner and bookkeeper. Minnie is responsible for much of the club's day-to-day administration. Her cool, rational personality has kept the club running in times of crisis.”

And on Mickey “Mickey is most visible as the club's flamboyant theater host and, in practice, leaves most of the club's management to the other staff.”

And like their Kingdom in KH is so peaceful that literally Minnie just does everything Goofy is the captain of the guard but there probably isn’t an actual guard tbh just because they don’t need one

Ahhh that smile you smile when someone you love walks in the room in other words Mickey and Minnie are literally trying to kill me

Gldskfjidsfoij Minnie why why must you hurt me this way why must you two be so

I literally will assert to my grave that rewatching House of Mouse was probably the best decision I ever made

(it was definitely ONE of the best)

It’s so weird to say “Goofy and Donald” tbh it’s like “Jelly and Peanut butter” or “dad and mom”

I’M SO EMOTIONAL ABOUT THESE DISNEY CHARACTERS YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND Minnie’s trying really hard to keep everyone focused and not panicking and Mickey’s a gigantic worrywart and Daisy’s a bit of an airhead and Goofy offers to do something only to remember that he’d forgot he had something else to do and he has to apologize and nnnnnnngg

I WAS GONNA HAVE A THING WHERE HEARTLESS SHOWED UP RN AND THEN DAISY KNOWS MAGIC SO SHE ENDED UP CLEARING A LOT OF THEM

But then the scene flowed differently

(also it’s comedic if they show up later trust me)

Sora keeps saying Shadow even tho not once did Mickey or Minnie or anyone say it

IT NEVER MADE IT IN SORA’S NOT OFFERING TO GO TELL MICKEY HIMSELF BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY DOESN’T WANT TO ABANDON MINNIE TO CHECK ON THE CORNERSTONE HIMSELF PARTIALLY BECAUSE THAT’S RUDE PARTIALLY BECAUSE HE’S SURE MICKEY WOULD BE VERY UPSET IF SORA WAS THE REASON HIS WIFE DIED ALSO THE CORNERSTONE SOUNDS HELLA IMPORTANT AND HE WAS ASKED TO HELP LOOK AFTER IT HE CAN’T SAY NO WITH A GOOD CONCIOUS

Daisy was intended to have more lines but they were cut because flow I am really really sorry

???? THIS IS A BLOG POST. (ch187)

So yeah timey-whimey about the past ten chapters for those cuuuuuuuuuurious
(like from ch179ish to now and how Sora lines up with Riku and how Roxas isn't in two places at once trust me it makes sense)

FTP-VERSE MUSIC BLOG!
Where you can listen to the main cast's favorite music! Playlists are now up! whoooooooooooooooooo




THIS ISN'T EVEN RELEVANTA TO THE CHAPTER NOT TO MENTION LIKE THREE MONTHS AND 70 CHAPTERS LATE
but here we have my SoKai AMV to Hymn for the Missing which would've been more relevant around Agrabah which was actually like a year ago wow. Wow wow this is late

But yeah I heard this remix and I was like YOOOO NEED TO EDIT AN AMV and it was supposed to be longer but I ran out of clips and ideas and editing to dubstep is hard. Real hard.
Maybe this would've been better if it'd been simpler but? Oh well. OH WELL IT IS DONE AND IT'S NOT HALF BAD IGNORE MY RAMBLINGS


chaaaaaaaaaaaaaapter time I guess it is yooooo

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PLEASE READ THROUGH MY TUMBLR POSTS WOW IT'S FUNNY I'M FUNNY THIS WAS SO FUN TO WRITE

Because just the. Entire situation of Axel carrying Roxas over his shoulder and Roxas being. Struggling and then being a ragdoll and kneeing Axel in the nose and it's all just
so ridiculous and hilarious I love it
I really love it

"Yeah nope this isn’t gonna be very serious"

~my attitude on this entire chapter

Idk how to write it but after Axel says no about the elixir Roxas literally flops over and just kind of hangs 

over Axel’s shoulder like a ragdoll because he’s physically disappointed about the whole thing

(I think I wrote it pretty well tho)

I think Axel just went “oh my god that’s a lot of blood. Oh my fuck he’s trying to keep fighting nOPE ”

And he picks him up and throws him over his shoulder yup

FUN FACT while thinking about exactly how Roxas had been injured I came to the conclusion that actually the most likely injury to have occurred from Riku botching a block would be him losing an arm at about the elbow. Riku brings his blade up to block but he's too slow and Roxas's arm is where he doesn't expect it to  be

and

yeah

I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH A LOST LIMB AND THEREFORE I DIDN'T. In the long run it wouldn't have mattered I supposed since Repair Program but still

Roxas has a slightly higher pain tolerance

It isn’t enough so he can’t feel pain (then he’d never notice he’s hurt and wouldn’t heal himself and would die in battle)

But it’s enough that it won’t completely incapacitate him if he can’t heal right away

Omg poor Roxas he kind of went straight from Neverland he hasn’t restocked

(Zack ran into this problem. ..... too soon?)

Also Axel, no, you are not magik’s Axel. You have not been through three ridiculously bloody battles with Saix.

I’m so

You’re welcome AkuRoku shippers?

Iii doooon’t think Axel’s nose is broken but it could be? Maybe? If it was it’d be bleeding but I don’t think so so?

?

I’m

Roxas is bloody and not wearing a shirt aha give him bandages and turn it into a fanart it’ll get a million likes

(beat up boys, tho. Or bandages. Both are good.)

I literally had a while where I was like "Roxas is shirtless. How do write?"

This is technically from Riku’s pov. Technically.

"How'd you manage to botch a block that badly!?"

LIKE WOW I CAN’T EVEN

HERE HAVE THIS PARAGRAPH OF PLOTTING BECAUSE

HELP

VEXEN FEELS

“not that- not that it’s necessarily a bad thing” Vexen says very quickly because he’s gotten all alsjfadsf about putting Riku down about anything because he hates how Riku responds and he maybe misreads Riku’s withdrawn mentality for shutting himself down like he does when he’s being scolded and Vexen def wants to remedy it help “Mistakes happen to everybody! I just…”

LASJDFLSJF

RIKU REALLY IT’S JUST A WORD WHY DO YOU NT WANT TO SAY YOU KISSED NAMINE

Neither of them want to say the word "kiss" you don't understand I've written ten chapters ahead and they still don't want to say it it's so ridiculous

Also Riku wanted to break the fourth wall?? Somewhere?? I don't remember what he wanted to do I'm sorry I bet it was real funny

“Couldn’t you have told Xemnas you mistook me for a Replica?” Vexen asked. “Or. Sorry. Mistook a Replica for me? Oh. You know what I mean!”

I typed that bit wrong and then turned it into Vexen saying it wrong. 

Tho tbh it's kind of just confusing in general so yeah

Actually that conversation between Axel and 7 would’ve happened while Riku and Vexen were talking so

Do I have the conversation saved? I think I do.... One sec.

“how hard is it to delete this memory from him? Like, the past five minutes? I normally wouldn’t suggest such a thing but… but I’m going to be in trouble because everything that just happened is recorded on his data. Xemnas will still find out”

Is what Axel says on the subject

LIKE I WAS THINKING THAT ROXAS WOULD BE REALLY PISSED AT AXEL AND CHEW HIM OUT FOR THIS AND THE THING IS

HE WOULD'VE TOLD XEMNAS

so this is how Axel avoids that problem

Like you couldn't have kept him from telling Xemnas it's just what Roxas would do

there was no ammount of bribery Axel could've done to keep Roxas quiet

It wouldn't have worked

Axel could lie his way out of it all he wants he can twist the truth and like?? I'm not sure how he would've passed off the fact that Roxas didn't actually remember those five minutes

but I think Roxas has gotten a little used to not remembering things (because Xion) so he would've just taken what Axel said happened as truth even if it wasn't truth

So

AND THEN I HAVE TO KEEP THIS PIECE OF GOLD FROM MY NOTES:

Oh uhm

Uh

M

Uh

HAHA POOR ROXAS

EH

HM

HE DOESN’T WREMMEBER WHY HE’S THERE I

I FEEL SO SORRY FOR HIM

I

AHSLDKJAHAHAHSLKJFASLF

THAT’S GOTTA

SUCK

He wakes up and he’s like “I’m shirtless and where the frik am I?”

pretend there's something witty here thanks (ch163)

OKAY SO I'mma just cut straight to the chase BUUUUTTT there are things

that

you may have missed

and they are:

A rant about Roxas and training!

An explanation of Vanitas and my fic! (only on tumblr)

And that's it! (except the review replies and the chapters I posted to ASAS)

have a video!



I stumbled on it about five seconds ago and it was really good so.

chapter time!

convenient link

notes on tumblr
(about half of these are for this chapter from Aerith's POV which I'll post to ASAS tomorrow whoops)

AND WOW MY NOTES ARE REALLY ALL OVER THE PLACE 
(but i'm a nicebutt and I sorted them for you)

Yuffie probably sits with that tennis ball for hours on end. (Idk what else there is to do around there, though, when you’re not being attacked by heartless, doing rounds and getting rid of heartless, and… what else??)

Riku you little poop, trying to get away with not telling them!!

(trying to just say “well, y’know, needed to get out of CO for a while…”)

I really was going to have Riku tell them why he was there. But then I thought about it. And I went no. He’s going to lie.

Because it’s in his character to lie—this is something he doesn’t like talking about, so he’s going to lie to avoid discussing the subject, plus he’s usually on the down-low about having people know any more than they need to about his personal life. (At least that’s how he should be. I’ve only been semi-consistent with this character development/traits/quirks thing.)

It’s a hypothesis not a theory

Cid bakes. Yes. Those cookies from ch63? Well, actually, Aerith might’ve made those, but it’s not specifically stated, and I can believe Cid did if I want (she was just getting them out of the oven for him, or something). The muffin Leon has in ch68? Cid made it (well he made an entire batch)

Yup. Cid bakes.

Leon’s only so good at cooking, and so when he cooks he’s just like FOCUS ON NOTHING BUT COOKING and really hones in on it. (He may be something of a perfectionist? Ahah??)

Yup. That’s Aerith for you. (Also reminds me of the first chapter of magik’s new fic for some reason idkz actually it’s just because Aerith has to include Yuffie in being special too yeah if you read magik’s fic you’d understand I think the connection is obvious)

Yuffie you’re not Joseph (I’ll sit on him if I have to!)

Wow I just typed Namine instead of Yuffie. ARE YOU MISSING HER ALREADY RIKU??

Rebuilding the town has only been going so well because they hardly have any idea what to do and Leon and Cid can’t come to an agreement on anything and Aerith has no clue how she’s supposed to help, and Yuffie’s anywhere between super helpful to downright obnoxious depending on the day so

If Riku knew/was told that they were rebuilding HB, it’s since slipped his mind/he’s forgotten about it

AERITH IS ALL ABOUT BEING POLITE but you probably all know that but still

ALPHA WHAT IS WITH YOU LATELY YOU FEEL LIKE A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON??

I’m assuming Namine formed the corridor for Alpha because Alpha would most likely have been polite enough to use the door. Most likely. (There is a chance he’s a bit annoyed right now and forwent manners)

Imagine how that conversation between Joseph and Alpha went, though

Joseph: Alpha! Riku’s leaving!

Alpha: He is? (faintly annoyed) When?

Joseph: Uhm… now. He was saying goodbye to Namine last I checked. (He pauses) He might’ve left already…

Alpha: (now very annoyed) Really?

Joseph: He was supposed to tell you before he left?

Alpha: Yup.

Joseph: Mm… I can form you a dark corridor to where he’s going!!

Alpha: That’d be great

OKAY so Joseph forms a dark corridor for Alpha then

I mean it makes sense Joseph has only really been inside Aerith’s house, and he’s not thinking about doors or manners and he’s just like this is where Riku is! and forms a dark corridor and of course it’s right into Aerith’s living room

(I could have it form in the dining room but that seems like a lot of work)

Alpha wants to bow??? At least slightly they are a polite bunch, at least towards complete strangers: polite by default, I suppose you could say

For some reason in my head Aerith’s sitting on the floor (I know she’s sitting on the couch though I just??)

As amusing as it would be, Aerith did not actually cast a mute spell on Cid but it would’ve been funny

Alpha have you and Vexen talked about Riku’s habits that formed during CoM? (sneaking off to see Namine was definitely one of them)

I waffle so much on whether or not I should type out what Cid says like it sounds in my head. I’ve heard doing that too much distracts, but I don’t feel like I’m doing it too much. (However I have to do it to a certain level otherwise his speech patterns look like Mickey’s)

Cid and Alpha can have semi-intelligent conversation with each other. (I only say semi because Cid has a much more laid back attitude toward it all)

Cid gets it because he’s a mechanic and apparently he thinks on sort of the same page. That or he’s worked with scientists, in which case he understands how they think. That’s likely.

Pretty sure that the conversation between Leon and Aerith about Riku staying for dinner happened in the kitchen and it wasn’t very loud but Riku’s got super sensitive hearing soooooo yup (I just thought it important to point out)

I’M ACTUALLY PRETTY CONFLICTED BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THAT DOES HAPPEN IN THE KITCHEN AND—I guess Riku’s just eavesdropping though it’s what he does

Oh hello Namine

Oh look you fried Riku’s brain again

But she KISSED HIM ON THE CHEEK

UHM

HELLO

SHE’S NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE

I DON’T’ THINK RIKU’S EVER EXPERIENCED THAT KIND OF AFFECTION

…

RIKU’S PROBABLY NEVER EXPERIENCED THAT KIND OF AFFECTION OHM Y GRACIOUS

Okay now I have to figure out a way to balance Riku being how do I emotion for Namine being cute and Riku being what is this affection I’m not used to this. What. What? WhAT???

I mean he’s gotten used to hugs and hand holding and sitting close and holding each other tight and taking faces in each other’s hands—which apparently is my favorite thing since I use it so frequently. I don’t know I guess I just like it because it’s all intimate. It’s intimate but it’s also reassuring and comfortable at the same time because you’re holding them in a rather intimate way but it’s to steady them and anchor them and maybe you’re just going in for a kiss on the lips but there’s also kissing on the forehead and that is so reassuring and sweet and idk I guess I have a thing for this

But anyway he is certainly very much not-used to being kissed. At all. Anywhere. Because. No one has ever kissed him. Not on the cheek not on the forehead not at all. Wow. I am just making myself sad here.

But it’s more than true. There was definitely no one being affectionate to him in CoM. [Larxene is Larxene. Marluxia by no means cared at all about him. Vexen was… well… Vexen, but he was rather cold and distant from Riku back during CoM because… CoM.] Like, I mean, Namine is literally the only person who might’ve been and even then she wasn’t. Not really. To an extent, sure, but definitely not to this extent.

And then post-CoM and in my universe I’m fairly sure the only person who’s shown any affection towards him is, of course, Namine. This Namine. My Namine. (Though I did make a note that Kairi might’ve thrown some jokingly affectionate quips in his direction just because she felt like being obnoxious I’m sure it happened I totes see it happening in canon)

And like I said he’s gotten used to the hugs and the hand holding and etc. because that happens semi-frequently.

But unless I’ve missed something I’m 100% positive that Namine’s never kissed him, even just on the cheek like this.

So anyway long rant short it’s really no wonder his brain is fried

Then of course you have to wonder what the crap is going through Namine’s brain and why she even decided to do that—because it was just a short random quick kiss on the cheek they weren’t even having a moment or anything. But then again Namine’s probably as impulsive as Riku because that’s how they are so she was probably just “this seems like a good idea!” and then she did it and then she was like “wait was that really a good idea??” (which is also how Riku’s brain works haha)

Okay so how to explain all this in the least amount of words yet still cover everything and portray everything without actually flat out saying it all

What’s the line I cross before being descriptive in a weird way, ah?

I don’t think I give a crap about how awkward this all may sound this is literally the first time Riku’s been kissed. Ever.

I mean, really, it’s nothing to most of us—not a kiss on the cheek, anyway—because most babies are coddled with kisses from over affectionate parents or siblings. Riku? Was never a baby. Was born and raised in CO during CoM, and we all know how bad that went. It’s not like he’s been kissed, ever, over the course of this story.

NAMINE YOU REALLY AREN’T HELPING

THEY ARE DEFINITELY HAVING A SEMI-PRIVATE MOMENT IN PUBLIC WHOOPS

Riku can’t think of another word besides nice, apparently. His brain’s a little asldkfjsldfjsdf at the moment though so I guess you can’t blame him ahaha

Riku you’re over thinking this stop

(heheh he gets that trait from Vexen bwahahah)

Riku stop this is not attractive

(no jk he totally finds this attractive)

RIKU, NAMINE BEING THREATENING IS CERTAINLY NOT CUTE

Namine baby are you just mimicking what you’ve seen Riku do aaaawwwww

RIKU COME ON STAAAAHP

(lol y'all can see how well that went)

~

That's everything!

I need to write

So what am I doing?

Replying to reviews xD




I really like it when people know how to edit Linkin Park. Also I really like this video. I haven't played FF13 all the way through, but if I do, I think it'll be to find out more about Vanille. DON'T TELL ME I'LL FIND IT OUT ON MY OWN even if I just sit and watch cutscenes. (I'm not opposed. That's what it felt like while playing the game anyway.)

And

REVIEW REPLIES~!!

Okay so I'm not gonna answer all of them because some thoughts on this sequence I can't reply to because a) there's nothing to say/that I think of to say and b) potential spoilers.

But anyway


DIch142 from Cookie.
I replied to him personally, but here's a few points that I thought some of you might like to see.

It's been a while since the last raid? Sure feels like it. I also hadn't updated in 2 months but I think- the last one was... ch124. The ambush/raid/Q shows up thing. Which I guess was a while ago, since the next sequence with Riku was the one with R (ch135)

I love where Vexen's character has gone, too! (He's one of my favorites to write, honestly.)


ASASch38 from KKBeckett

Aqua sensed Sora? As in the charm was totally trying to get her and Sora to run into each other? Most definitely. (Here's a link to it's companion chapter if anyone needs to reread/read them togetherish)

Alksdjf I know that darkness line! "There ain't no darkness that's gonna keep me from helping one of my best friends."


ASASch39 from KKBeckett

Aha I'm sorry I'm confusing you with Van feels. They confused me too, when I wrote this. (Or they might've. I know I was having feels, regardless.)

In Sora's heart? Ven saw Shad. Not Vanitas. Vanitas is, for all things good and simple, dead. Shad might've absorbed what was left of his consciousness shh. However, Ven thinks he saw Vanitas because Van and Shad look almost identical.


DIch143 from Peach

Vexen's plans don't always fail this horribly. They do tend to go not how he wanted them to very frequently, however

And, yes, Axel killing Alpha would be terrible. Hence why it hasn't happened. Yet.


~

And, anyhoo, that's it. I might go to bed because I'm tired. But I also was in the middle of a train of writing thought and I should probably finish it y'know?

LET'S REPLY TO SOME REVIEWS

There have been Days AMVs all over youtube like you would not believe. I thought I'd share one.

lol

now

TIME TO REPLY TO REVIEWS

THE GLORIOUS FOUR THAT I CURRENTLY HAVE unless there's more that I haven't touched but I don't think there are

ASAS first

ch41 from archsage
I love what you said at the end of your review. It was so heart warming and inspirational and I have a feeling that I needed to hear that (sorry for being sappy). Thank you for that.
I'd love to write more of Joseph and Xion interacting, too. I always have fun writing conversations between the two of them. If I write more of this, it might be purely because of that.
(Oh and you'll be happy to hear I have another AU sequence lined up with Roxas and Xion, but I won't be posting it anytime soon due to spoilers and other such things. Eventually, though)

ch41 from psychicshipping
oh jeeze I think from you and everyone combined it's enough to let me know there's demand. No guarantees on whether or not I'll write more, I have more important things (like mainstream Dead Inside) to be writing, but more of this sequence is definitely on my list of things I should probably write

ch41 from Flightfoot
good to know you like AU stuff! I will certainly keep that mind and post more AU things in the future (I have at least three scenes I can think of to post, but two of them have massive spoilers so... *shrugs*)


and Dead Inside

ch140 from KKBeckett (pity it wasn't 141 that would've been so cool)
Hymn for the Missing by RED. Also one of the songs that fits my SoKai so much it hurts. (It's actually like the only song haha
No you didn't mention, but, yeah. That reference was purposeful. (And was actually in an earlier scene between Tifa and Kairi that I'd written but ended up scrapping)



and... that's it

Journal Dump 14

I love this video. I'm usually not a fan of crossovers, but this one was done really well. You'll have to read the description, since it's got an in-depth explanation of the story, so here's a link to the video page
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gR3G1hVUwWs
though you could click on the youtube icon in the bottom corner, or at the title of the video at the top, but... convenience

so

Journal dump time!

~

Fic

"You have to understand. Back then, I had nothing. And what little I was given, I cherished."


jeeze, I'm finding very little quotes and things. But, I love this threat:

"Oi! I will Stop you if I have to!"
~'cuz, y'know, Stop is a spell, and so you can threaten to Stop someone... yeah...


nutz! There a good quotes in this, that are funny and I can't post them because this scene is crawling with spoilers... sigh...


"Ooh! One of them dropped a hi-potion! I have a hi-potion!"

"Has he always been this full of himself?"

"How you doing?"
"I'm- I'm doing okay. You?"
"I could be happier"


And then... there's this whole sequence of snippets/plotting from the chapter(s) I'm writing right now... And I can't post most of them


"Well, no arguing with Namine's prophetic skills. Looks like I'm fighting him"

"This is Xigbar we're talking about. I'm sure he can handle it."


heheh
"Bachharo!"
"Excuse me? I am not! I mean, I realize you're just trying to insult me, but by definition, I am not. I don't have parents."


"You ever been frozen solid? Trust me, not a pleasant experience."


Haha, here's the page where I wrote all the possible ways to re-arrange the letters in Even (did you know there's a math equation... thing (it's not an equation, but I"m not sure what to call it) that will give you that answer?)
Why?
Vexen: something something (idk what) Braig
Xigbar: Hey! not cool! I don't even technically know you, considering you're from a different universe
Vexen: I know. I just wanted to try it out...
Xigbar: How like you, Even. *pauses* it is Even, right?
Vexen: yes
Xigbar: just gotta check, y'know? Then again... how many ways can you rearrange Even?
Vexen: Twelve. Though I doubt most of those would suffice as a name... They'd be a very odd name, anyway



Notaficxfic crossover

Yuffie: Y'know, one could assume you're pure darkness...
Colin: I am pure darkness
Yuffie: (shocked as heck) You. Are. Not.
Colin: Uh, yeah I am

Colin: I am not Shadow Folk!
Cole: Don't spit! *covers Colin's mouth with his hand*
(Colin spits anyway)
Cole: eugh!
Colin: Gotta ward off the bad luck

Yikes. I just realized, I have 32 pages of plotting/snippets for this notafic crossover. This will be a bear by the time I get around to writing it. (Then again, it really is a short story in and of itself, having a major conflict/climax and all the other stuff that define a concrete plot for a story)

to put this in perspective, I have 38 pages of plotting for book 5. Now, book 5's plot is scattered, and for the notafic crossover, I really just have to go through and put in a few transitions, because I'm basically writing the entire thing, just in spurts...
but, still... this is ridiculous...
(Then again, I think I threw everything in there, including the things I won't be posting so I'll probably cut some stuff)



Notafic

(I love this bit)
Colin: you filthy bachharo! How'd you get here faster than me?
Edd: Uh... you had to go through Concourse? (Concourse, is, like a gating system... thingy)
Colin: Oh, that's true... And, of course, Midnight was running the gate here
Edd: (trying to be optimistic) At least you didn't have to go through regular protocol
Colin: It would've been faster if I had!
(Edd cringes sympathetically)
Edd: Ooh... she was in one of those moods.

~because, though I can't give Midnight a major role in my notafic, why not stick her in every job I possibly can? She was working at a restaurant earlier...

oh, speaking of:

Midnight: Not so fast! You still owe me three tribs!
Darian: It was not that much, Mid. It was 15 gats. Honestly
Star: Who's this?
Darian: Old friend
Midnight: Name's Midnight. I run admission to the Coffee House. And Darian owes me money from when she lost--
Darian: It was Riddle's fault

(Tribs and gats are a form of currency in my notafic. Ten gats equals one trib)



Other quotes/things

"Are you the stuff Heroes are made of, or are you a jellyfish in a skirt?"
~from HTTYD9. How to Steal a Dragon's sword. I think. It's the ninth one, I know that for certain.

"All this time I waited for you to save me...
when you were the one who needed saving"
~I ripped this off of someone's dA siggy


Erm...

That's kind of it. this doesn't feel like a lot, but I wrote a very large chunk of notafic stuff in here, and I'm limiting myself to posting only notafic stuff that's funny/a really good quote

there was also that chunk of the sequence I'm working on writing now that will be posted to Dead Inside not long from now

And my cat has gone crazy... sheesh. She's like... rubbing her head against every hard surface she can find (my laptop, my tv tray, my dad's shoe.)
I know cats are usually just plain weird, but... uhm... I don't like having my cat's tail in my face

Haha

My cat just doesn't normally do things like this. She normally lays in the middle of the floor/couch/bed and if if you go anywhere near her/try to touch her she bites your hand off. Almost literally.
She bit me in the face yesterday because I was apparently laying too close next to her. Yes, in the face. of course, her aim kind of wasn't good, so she just barely got my eye, because she hit my nose before she could bite me. But she tried to bite me in the face.

Seriously, cat, do you want attention? No? I tried petting her, and she gave me a weird look.

Anyway

now that my cat's left

There was a large chunk of plotting for stuff that I'll be posting to Dead Inside within the next few weeks. I don't want to post it now because it's kind of littered with spoilers, considering this is a large plot point
that, and I"m going through a phase where I don't want to post some of the funny quotes because I just want you to see them when you read them... 

So

Sorry

Oh yeah, I forgot about these... (sort of commentary on ch141)

First off, though, you all need to read this if you haven't

http://fantacination.livejournal.com/22218.html

That is awesome RepliNami fanfic. Read it. See my previous post about it while you're at it, too


And now that I've thrown RepliNami feels at you, have an equally awesome Namiku amv (asdkjflkj those voiceovers!)





And now lets talk about Sora xD

~

So, originally I was going to have a chapter in here with Sora, but I just couldn't write anything for him. I squeezed out a little scene that was maybe 300 words. I'll post it to ASAS, but it certainly wasn't going to make it's own chapter.

Anyway, as I was trying to plot Sora's scene, before I scrapped it, I was talking to magik, and I mentioned that I wanted a nightmare scene.

This is what she gave me:

magik: you could start out his nightmare when he's in school, then have him look down and realize he's not wearing pants

magik: but THEN

magik: he could realize that the darkness is what ate his pants!

magik: i'm sorry
magik: i'm just...

magik: i'm so sorry

Lol 

Yeah...

Then she gave me this:

magik: he could have a ngihtmare revolving around school

magik: maybe the darkness latches onto him in his dream

magik: oh!

magik: okay, so he's at school, but he's confused because Riku and Namine are there too

magik: and then, in his dream, the darkness latches onto him and he attacks riku out of the blue

magik: and Riku's just lying there.... helpless

magik: and it's not Namine's horrified and angry face that scares him

magik: but KAIRI's horrifed and angry frace

magik: *face

magik: not frace

magik: who am i, grface?

magik: anyway...

rar: lol, exactly

magik: so he runs

magik: and then Shad's with him

magik: and he blames Shad for what he just did

magik: and Shad's like "no, dude, that wasn't me... that was the darkness"

magik: and...

magik: well...

magik: it's a start

rar: yes

rar: a start

rar: most certainly

But then I decided I didn't want to write a chapter for Sora. So I didn't.

TO THE CHAPTER ITSELF!!!

And my like... three notes

I apparently was considering having someone (who could see and hear Shad), probably a girl, probably a slightly compassionate girl, finding Shad curled up into a ball on the ground after all that happened, and he gets pissed and practically strangles her with his darkness.

As I typed it out, I realized it would've been interesting. Ah well. I don't feel like going back and dealing with that.

Apparently, as I was writing this, I was watching amvs and being spammed with Namora vids. "It's hard to write while being spammed with Namora vids", my notes say.

(I just realized, nearly every feasibly canon pairing with Namine in it is tragic. alskdjf)

Lol.

"Insulting Maleficent? Good. Calling her that, however..."

I had the thought cross my mind where Shad would talk and use the wolf as his puppet, making it look like the wolf was speaking. And. Stuff.

Jeeze my notes for this is boring.

The only other thing I say is "of course every world has a market. How can every world not have a market?"

...

That was fun

Let's move on, now.

Asdlfkj magik! Stop posting on the same day I'm going to post, lol (chapter commentary on ch59 of Can't Escape)

bleehhh
(btw, there is currently one update over in Dead Inside)

I'd feel a lot better about this if I didn't randomly have writer's block. Like, it's bad writer's block; not "ugh i don't know what to do" but "eh, I don't feel like writing"

sakfjslfjslfkjsdlf

(This dachsted raid! I don't know why I can't write it! It's not like it's that different from any of the other raids! But I just alksdfjskf)

Hmm. I should really start posting AMVs with every post again. I still have a lot of them.


Anyway, this has been a favorite of mine for a while. gotegenks is an impressive editor ('specially with fast-paced stuff, like "Dreams") and... yeah.

Yeah

TO THE CHAPTER! *cue music*

Fun fact about this; Ienzo goes through the Organization in numerical order. (This is actually something I do quite frequently). I originally was going to have him mention Lexaeus first, but... eh. Numerical order.

"Then again, knowing Luxord, he'd gain more munny gambling than he would lose."

lol

and, of course!

"You're analyzing your emotions, Vexen"

heheh

Poor Vexen. He needs to stop having so many panic-attacks. It can't be healthy.

Another fun fact! Most of this was written in a journal. This bit right here. With him panicking about Larxene.

oh! And, in the original draft, Vexen actually mentions he wants to strangle Larxene. I ended up cutting that...

Lol, Vexen. I went and looked up the original draft, so I could see what he said exactly in regards to wanting to strangle Larxene, and I come up with this:

"I know that, rationally, going and hunting her down to strangle her isn’t going to get me anywhere, but that doesn’t change the fact that I want to"

According to my notes... actually, I'll just copy this directly:
"Agh, I really need to not go to bed when I have a rant sitting in the back of my head. I keep losing these darn things. I'm pretty positive I've come up with three different rants concerning Vexen's anger towards Larxene. Can I remember any of them? Nope!"

It's funny, Twilight Symphony's rendition of Lake Hylia (or is it the Fishing Hole? Rutela's Wish? One of those from Lanayru!) reminds me of Dire Dire Docks from Super Mario 64. This might be influenced by the fact that Kyle Landry plays piano for the Twilight Symphony, and he's done a Dire Dire Docks cover.

Hello Joseph!

I do math in the air. Don't you?
Algebraic equations are visual, after all

Lol, though, Joseph probably didn't need to do that equation in the air. He's 12. He should know off the top of his head that 15 divided by 3 is 5. But... whatever. I wanted to have him do something. And he could've been... checking himself...

According to my notes, I considered the idea of having Joseph pull a dictionary down from the shelf and have to sit down because it's so huge. Because there are dictionaries that exist that are flipping huge (we own one).

And then I went into something like, "Joseph's not much of a kid, so he'd actually probably be okay lifting a dictionary" and then from there I started talking about the fact that my characters are probably stronger than me... I mean, Joseph's three years (nearly four! alsdkfj) younger than me and shorter than me, but he's probably got more arm-strength. My seven-year-old sister does, for goodness sake!
I bet even Namine's stronger than me...

Oh, yes, that was a reference to how long Dead Inside is. Currently *checks* Dead Inside has 527 pages.

This idea actually came from a few chapters ago, after Joseph and Toby left magik's universe, Joseph mentions (mentioned?) something about it taking ages to explain everything that's going on in my universe to Ienzo, and Toby was like:

Toby: would it really have taken that long to explain?

Joseph: Probably. I know Ienzo – Zexion – whoever. They’re all the same, and they’re all really curious about detail. Do you how much detail is involved in what’s going on in our universe? If I were to write a book about what’s going on with the Rebellion alone, it would be over five hundred pages, okay? That’s how complicated this all is.

which actually started as Joseph saying this:

"Our Replica Program is sooo messed up right now. Like, if I were to write a book about all the technicalities, and exactly what happened and stuff, the book would probably be over five hundred pages. And that’s a lot of pages."

But I changed the quote when Toby asked... because it flowed better, I think. I don't remember.

*rocks out to the Stallord battle music*

Aww... that's the end of the chapter... I wanted to talk about Heartless naming... oh well

next chapter

(which will be the last chapter)

I might post something to Dead Inside today. But I probably won't. So.

I'm baackk!! (commentary on ch140 (of Dead Inside, what else?))

Ugh, chapter title. I hate having to find chapter titles. Why don't I have one already picked out??

In the mean time, though




here's that video I promised you

Wonderful video. Just. Yeah.

TO ZEE CHAPTAAA

that so wasn't... me... that didn't feel like somethiing I would say. Oh well.
"That line's not you" "Had to try it once, y'know"

right

so

chapter time!!

oh waittzz

I should go hunt down a chapter title... *sighs*

Hmm... "Hymn for the Missing"... why not? It's fitting, yeah? Yeah. 'course it is.

Now, to my notes!!

Kairi gets talkative at the oddest moments.

Why do I say that?

I wrote the nightmare New Year's eve (early New Year's morning...?) after watching How to Train Your Dragon. Because... Idk. It just came to me, and you don't argue with inspiration. Trust me. Bad idea.

"He'd always been a faster runner"--this actually reminds me of a Spanish song. Almost immediately. Is that a good thing?
"De los dos tu siempre fuiste el mas veloz"

And, did you know, that it's actually possible to feel like your lungs are on fire? It's not just some fancy metaphor it's actually a simile that authors use to convey the idea of running for too long. Of course, having your lungs feel like that is typically a result of running too much/for extended periods of time (especially when you're not used to running), but it's a real feeling. Not a fancy metaphor.

Just thought I'd let you know.

Also, if you haven't learned this by now, me and blood... have a complex relationship. This nightmare was actually a bit gorier in my head, but I try sometimes not to go too overboard with the blood. Haha.

"You're next, Roxas. I have to make you a part of me too."

Haha. My notes. I love the notes I leave to myself, really. Anyway, so, I wrote down a good portion of this scene New Year's... early morning, writing I think up to about the point where Tifa decides to call Cloud. Roughly. My memory isn't perfect.

Anyway, my notes say (after coming back to the scene):
"Reading back over this, now, not entirely remembering what was going through my mind while I was writing it, I wonder if I had the dream sequence with Kairi chasing Sora connect to Kairi’s “chasing Sora isn’t working!” thing. I don’t think I did. That might’ve been coincidental, but it certainly connects. I love my subconscious sometimes."

The phonecall between Tifa and Cloud actually went completely differently, and actually involve the two of them yelling at each other for a bit until Cloud was finally like "Tifa, this is why I don't answer my phone!"
I couldn't make it flow, though, so it was scrapped. Not quickly scrapped, but scrapped.

Somewhere in here... not sure where, I wanted to type "chortles" instead of "laughter". my notes say so I HAVE CHORTLES!! Ahaha, sorry, that's a Fawful thing. If you've played any of the Mario and Luigi games for the DS (like Bowser's Inside Story), then you'll remember Fawful. (and, techncially, that was two Mario villian references. I laughed like Dimentio. Ahahaha.)

Yup.

Kairi! Stop asking personal questions!

There was a side tangent about Cloud staying in Hollow Bastion that got cut for... I think it just didn't flow.
Here's said tangent (Tifa's speaking):
"Uhm… a few years, at least. I can’t remember exactly how many. Really, the last time he’s stayed in one place for a long amount of time was when Sephiroth was still around. Given how injured he tended to get during his battles with Sephiroth, it was easier to just stay in Hollow Bastion, where Aerith could heal him. I might not be bad at healing, but I certainly don’t do Cloud any good if I’m three worlds away from him and unaware of the fact he’s injured. It was best to just stay in Hollow Bastion, where healing could be offered immediately. Of course, convincing him to stay in Hollow Bastion, when Sephiroth went after everyone there very frequently, was hard…"

I also meant to have Tifa give her opinion on Sora's struggles with the darkness, but then Kairi was like NOPE and lead the conversation a different direction. Or maybe it was Tifa who lead it a different direction... one of them did...

"Not that this is a good example." Because it's not. Paralleling Kairi possibly saving Sora to Tifa only "helping" Cloud or whatever that was. I realized that after writing it down, but I was too lazy to come up with anything different, so... I just had Kairi be incapable of coming up with anything besides wanting to Save Sora, and so Tifa tries to compensate, then realizes "ohmygosh, did Kairi seriously just say that?!"

And Kairi wanted to say "I want his struggles to be over, and I will fight them for him if I have to," but I limited her to "banishing his darkness for him" because... too many side tangents. I didn't want to distract Tifa
that, and it's a bit EARLY for Kairi to be making such hasty declarations

No, this light summoning thing isn't really Holy or any similar attack. It's exactly as I describe it as. Of course, no one as yet complained about me doing this, but... on the off chance you do, here's the rant/explanation thing I typed in my notes:

"Why am I doing this? Because, well, why limit a character’s powers to the basic attacks you see in gameplay? Where’s the fun in that? I mean, really this was inspired by the “Burning Heart” story I read, and the one scene that immediately comes to mind is that Roxas had summoned a ball of light to him and was using it to light his way. BECAUSE WHY NOT!? I mean, seriously, why didn’t I think of things like this sooner? THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I’VE LOVED DOING MY ENTIRE LIFE! And, anyway, why can’t light do things like this? I certainly have darkness do similar things. Why should this be any different than Axel randomly lighting things on fire, or Vexen/one of his Replicas freezing someone to the ground and essentially immobilizing them? Why can’t light be epic like this, too? We see it in things like Roxas’s limit break, and it manifests in Ven’s Wingblade. WHY CAN’T KAIRI DO EPIC LIGHT THINGS, TOO, THAT AREN’T SPECIFICALLY LABELED HOLY? Sorry. I just had chocolate, and I’m in a rant-y mood, apparently. (And after typing Wingblade, I have the urge to play BBS. I can. But I’m writing… maybe I’ll start it up tomorrow. Though I do have that unfinished runthrough of TP I started, and I downloaded Super Mario RPG on the Wii through the virtual console and I REALLY should play that, because the Great Allie references it frequently, and… it’s not like I’m stuck, I just was at a stopping point and never got back to it (though if I’m really complaining about what the Great Allie references, then I REALLY should say I need to play Bowser’s Inside Story. But I’m stuck there. I forget if I’m still stuck somewhere inside Bowser’s stomach or not. I remember being stuck in some underground level with enemies that are way too powerful for me, but I believe that was in Partners in Time… and I’m rambling again. See, it’s the chocolate!))"

Lol, I wonder if one of these times I should just copy my notes entirely into a blog, and then sift through and explain a few unclear things, instead of incorporating my notes into a completely new blog

(Because my notes are written as I'm writing the thing. So... what better commentary is there?)

Oh, and then I wrote:

"Light is as good of a weapon as darkness is, after all."

So, according to my notes (though i do remember this) I was reading through some of magik’s stuff where Holy is used, as I was writing this, and in ch43 of Betwixt and Between, Kairi uses Holy on a large amount of Heartless, and Ven was like “THAT IS AWESOME!” and my first was reaction was to point at my screen (I did point at my screen) and say (think, technically) “Ven should know that” because he should learn Holy, and other such attacks. BECAUSE HE’S VEN.
*nods*

Lol
"Shut up, Cole, I don't need to capitalize 'light'"

but when I'm writing for him, I DO capitalize Light. lol, accidently typed "lighter"

Lol!! and then I wrote in my notes:

"So, I’m writing, and my cat’s on the couch next to me, and out of NOWHERE, she meows and starts attacking her own foot. Okay then. Cats are weird. And now she’s staring at me… I think she knows I’m talking about her…"

Also according to my notes, I said: "It has become apparent to me that I use the word 'grimace' very frequently."

Huh. I can't find that in the chapter... oh well

I'm just gonna copy this next bit from my notes:

I bet Tifa’s done this whole teaching thing for Kairi before. When, say, teaching Kairi magic. Or fighting. I bet, the first thing she taught Kairi, though, was Cure.

And then:

Pity we aren’t past the Heckuva Long Raid yet. It would’ve been fun to parallel Tifa teaching Kairi to… well. I can’t tell you. But it would’ve been fun.

AND WE'RE AT THE HECKUVA LONG RAID! I just... need to keep writing it... and make sure it flows properly. And other such stuff. And magik hasn't gotten back to me... I sent her an email last night...

Anyhoo

One more point I'd like to touch

As I was writing this, the whole summoning-light thing, I contemplated having a few Heartless show up in response to the light, to balance it out and all that, but I decided against it. Magik was putting something like that off until her Kairi (and Namine) got more powerful, so it seems unlikely that my Kairi would be able to do/cause something like that right off the bat.

Plus, there IS a difference between "light attacks" and "HOLYSHOOTTHAT'SALOTOFLIGHTYOU'RESUMMONINGHEARTLESSCALMDOWN!!"

*stares pointedly at Cole*

Now

Uhm.

That's it. That's it... Yeah. Gonna go... do something else with my life now, lol.