Chapter 230 commentary

I thought about posting one of the Dead Inside soundtracks

but then I decided

nah man

(if you are interested part 1 is here and part 2 is here and part 3 has not been posted)

i will meet my creators from radicaltea on 8tracks Radio.

have this RepliNami mix which is simultaneously kinda bad but absolutely perfect for the two of them
(my only regret about the mix is that Lovefool won't play which is Very Sad because it's sooooo good)

If you want a legit music suggestion for this chapter that would be "Gun" by CHVRCHES -- either version is fine but this rerelease whatever version is really nice......

Oh and Illusions by TSFH is also really good for this chapter.... oh I forgot about that....
(there is a 10% chance that is not the right song. It is labeled weird-ish. You can try searching "Illusions Thomas Bergerson" and you may come up with better results)





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This is maybe a little sad I’m more emotionally invested in the SoShad battle than the Namiku one haha

(admittedly it’s likely because I plotted the SoShad one for like two years and the Namiku one has only been a thing for like a few months now so I haven’t had much time to think about it)

ACTUALLY LET’S TALK ABOUT IT NOW WE CAN TALK ABOUT IT

I wasn’t,,,, initially planning to rewrite Namine

Completely honestly

I was gonna disable her and it was gonna be a Big Deal

Except the more I thought about it the more I realized it wasn’t actually a big deal????????? And literally all I gained from it was like three hours of Riku being depressed beyond belief and it doesn’t get any legit emotional development out of him

The only way for that to get development off of him is if it lasted for a while. Say, a few months or so and there really was no hope but

But writing riku being extremely depressed for three months in story more like

No thanks

I feared for my mental health tbh

So that was scrapped

And then I was like

“okay but Xemnas kinda makes a bad final battle because they’re literally only doing it because they have to there’s no emotional tug

Cue me deciding rewriting namine was a good idea

You’re welcome

I ACTUALLY CAME UP WITH IT BECAUSE I HAD JUST REPLAYED SUPER PAPER MARIO (IN WHICH YOU FIGHT BRAINWASHED LUIGI) AND FINISHED WATCHING A PLAYTHROUGH OF MOTHER 3 (I WON’T SAY WHO YOU FIGHT BUT IT’S ANOTHER BRAINWASHED SOMEONE) AND I WAS LIKE

HMM

WHAT IF I PUT RIKU IN THIS SITUATION

WHAT IF I REWROTE NAMINE

I was high on brainwashing feels and here is the result

(and while it’s arguable whether or not I got development out of Riku, it is at least more interesting, plus I expanded the NamiKai dynamic and that’s kinda important)

OKAY BUT KAIRI IS JUST SITTING HERE THINKING TO HERSELF “thank god she’s not sora he would’ve tickled me in the armpits and I’d be too busy laughing and squirming and trying not to get tickled to have successfully pinned him to the ground. Thank god Namine hated play fights.”

And like it’s no surprise SoKai had tickle fights and wrestled each other a ton and they’d been doing it forever because it’s how they grew up but Namine

Namine is a very reserved little girl regardless of what you want to tell me and she was never one to be too interested in tickle fights—yes she probably got in a few but they also probably didn’t last very long because she had the sense to remove herself from the equation as soon as possible

And as for Riku because maybe you’re curious or maybe you’re not

While he’s not against play fights, they didn’t happen much with him because if they went on for too long he’d start taking them too seriously—not even necessarily on purpose just out of reflex or whatever and

Well that usually ended in someone—usually not Riku—getting hurt. Badly.

He was like a bomb waiting to go off and while some days you could probably get a good tickle fight out of him other days it’d last about thirty seconds before he’d panic and do something deadly

So after a while SoKai just kinda quit trying because they feared for their health

(it’s not even Riku’s fault he’s just been in a lot of fights and especially early on his memory was a little. Y’know.)

I mentioned it on tumblr but I wasn’t 100% clear—I was laughing about how sidetracked Kairi was this whole time between thinking about how Sora could tickle her and reverse the situation had it been him and not Namine

Along with Namine punching her and it being a good punch

And I said “it’s almost as if she can’t believe this is happening” which was hella vague but

It was kind of to say “she doesn’t want to think about what’s happening so she’s distracting herself with little things instead”

I’m horrible but this makes me laugh:

“I can’t fight her kairi please don’t make me please--hhnGHASDFLJ” there’s the lightning bolt