Yup. Zero Confidence. (ch162)

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Chapter time!

convenient link to the chapter~

link to my tumblr notes (there's not a lot, due to my internet being off for a large portion of me writing this)

Also, if you want a music suggestion, I do have an entire playlist of Namiku themed music (just hit play all)

Though, the most fitting songs for this chapter would probably either be Run or Breathe into Me, (idk those are the raw-er songs and this chapter is raw and intimate like their argument but it's in a good way and not a bad way so) though Touched by Her Hand should fit regardless due to it being their theme

anyway!

lol my notes on this chapter largely consist of me ranting in caps

And since I'm lazy and figure any rant is a rant and why should I re-format everything for the blog, I'm gonna copy-and-paste it all over
(No but really, what is the point of changing my ranty notes at all when I move them to the blog? There isn't a point. They're going to be ranty notes wherever they go. Why do I need to reformat them??)

letsgo!

JOSEPH YOU LITTLE POOP

(though that was kinda the point, so)

BUT HE’S A LIAR, TOOOO

(not that it's a surprise I mean don't get me started on Joseph and lying it's like his forte or something though none of you are surprised by that)

Riku, taking a leaf out of Colin’s book is not good. (Maybe if this were book 5 I’d let it slide, but, even then…)

No really Riku that is not okay right now

RIKU REALLY!?!

IDK IF I SHOULD LET HIM I MEAN IT’S TOTALLY FITTING FOR THIS MOMENT BUT THEY’VE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE SO IT’S REALLY WEIRD AND

Though I suppose there is a first time for everything…

Mmmmrr

HE IS SO JUMPY THOUGH

LIKE IS THIS EVEN A GOOD IDEA!?! I’M NOT SURE. BUT. I. WANT. TO.

Idk guys

YOU KNOW HE’S PROBABLY REALLY HESITANT BECAUSE HE HASN’T DONE THIS BEFORE, HASN’T THOUGHT OF DOING THIS BEFORE, AND EVEN THOUGH HE WANTS TO HOLD HER LIKE THAT HE IS SUPER SUPER NERVOUS OF HOW SHE’LL RESPOND BECAUSE HE’S NERVOUS ABOUT THAT ALL THE TIME BECAUSE HER OPINION REALLY MATTERS TO HIM AND HE REALLY HATES IT WHEN SHE RESPONDS NEGATIVELY BECAUSE IT’S LIKE AN ICE PICK THROUGH HIS HEART AND HE JUST

Alsdkfjds you guuuysss staaahp

OKAY NAMINE I DIDN’T THINK YOU WERE ACTUALLY IN RIKU’S LAP

I AM HAVING FEEEEEELS

IDK IF THIS IS AS RAW AS THEIR ARGUMENT, BUT IT CERTAINLY FEELS RATHER INTIMATE

Don’t say goodbye Namine. That sounds so final.

YOU PUT SO LITTLE TRUST IN THEM, RIKU, BUT THEY’D BOTH DO A FINE JOB OF PROTECTING NAMINE. TRUST ME.

Oh wait that was only 1500 words. Whoops. I thought that’d be a full chapter. Oh well!

~actually nezzermind adding 6 in should fix that

And! fun fact 6 here! Magik actually requested for this scene, and I'd intended to put it later, only to realize I wouldn't be covering this sequence from Namine's POV as I'd originally intended. So. It goes here.

Also I might have to cut Joseph and Toby popping out from behind the couch awwww

(good news: I didn't have to cut it)

WAIT I JUST REALIZED 6 IS STILL SPEAKING SPANISH?? YES? NO? WAS THAT CANON??

Regardless I should rewrite this with him speaking Spanish and Riku translating and yes that’ll be fun

I’m not 100% positive how they’re sitting but I’m about 97% sure that Namine is sitting in Riku’s lap

I like writing out noises

~actually lol that didn't make it into the chapter, but I really do like writing out the little noises we make like. Like sighs and grunts. "Ah" is my new favorite, and "mm" is another one I use a lot and "mg" is a lot of fun. Yup. *shrug*

Riiiiiiiikuuu

THEY’RE BEING CUTE AND I’M NOT 100% SURE HOW TO WRITE IT AGH

I do not have practice with this bleck

RIKU’S HAVING FEELS ABOUT NAMINE AND CHANNELING THEM IS SLIGHTLY UNCOMFORTABLE

that or his brain stopped working and I’m having trouble channeling it because I’m focusing on channeling something when there’s nothing to channel

Okay is listening to a SoKai themed playlist while writing Namiku being awkwardly cute a good idea? (I really need to come up with a Namiku playlist)

EXCEPT HAHA I DO HAVE A NAMIKU PLAYLIST NOW just not while I was writing this chapter. Writing this chapter was the fuel for making a playlist though because it would've been useful

RIKU’S HAVING THOSE EMOTIONS

THOSE NAMINE’S BEING ADORAABLE AND I JUST ALSDKFJSFDFS EMOTIONS

THESE EMOTIOSN ARE REALLY HARD TO WRITE

Whoop there it is. her smacking him because he’s being stupid/rude

That was a “I really don’t want to leave her” glance because there are things bubbling in his chest and maybe leaving isn’t a good idea but oh yeah I might be hurting her so yeah leaving’s good

yeaaaaah

That's all my notes

Have the bare dialogue of 6 speaking Spanish!

¡Voy a protegerle! (6 exclaims, startling them)

Ahm, six- (Riku has to pause and blink a few times because not only does he have to form something coherent but it also has to be in Spanish) seis. Esta- esta bien, pero- pero no esta-

¡Puedo hacerlo!

Ah, si, pero-

¡Si puedo!

What’s he saying? (Namine asks, a bit lost)

He’s saying he’ll protect you, (Riku replies, his tone obviously aggravated and he lets out an aggravated breath, too)

(Namine thinks about it, then smiles) Well, tell him that it’s a great idea and that I’m very thankful for his help

What!? Are you crazy? (he doesn’t hiss because 6 can’t understand him)

Of course not! The more the better, right? This way, I’ll be absolutely safe (she smiles and nods and Riku just rolls his eyes but)

Ella- ella dice que está un bueno idea. Y quiere decir gracias.

¡De nada! (6 exclaims, clapping his hands together and grinning and skipping off)

Well (Riku sighs) I now have zero confidence you’ll be safe.