Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Journal Dump 15

Been ages since one of these! Since I'm at my computer almost 24/7, I hardly ever use my journal anymore because why write it on paper when I can type it up and it's 10x faster not to mention somewhere where I can find it

Still



I think I need RED's new album. I've only listened to it once but I just stumbled on that song above again and it's really good and I think I remember the rest of the album is good. I'd listen to it right now but I want to listen to Fall Out Boy's new album before they take all the tracks down

Actually in teh time it took me to type all this up I decided I wanted RED's new album just to let you know

Anyway

Journal dump time!

Any random quotes I find that aren't Fic/Notafic/crossover related I'll just post in whatever section I happen to be in at the time, okay? Okay.


Fic

let's see random quote from book 5, while, not spoilers, isn't an entirely good quote out of context

ah

"The pain of suddenly reliving horrific events is almost unimaginable for me. Please try and remember that although it feels like it's real and it's happening right now, it's not. You are okay, you are fine, and you are safe. You are in the present here and now, and the past can't manifest itself again to come and physically hurt you. Everything is fine. These feelings will pass and you're going to be okay."
~got this quote from tumblr. This post, to be exact
I know this isn't technically fic related but remember I'm just posting the quotes in whatever section I happen to be in at the time
though actually it's concerning PTSD and to be honest I've looked at the symptoms and Riku just might have that, aha

oh yes! I have quotes from the brainstorms that I should post! I'll finish the journal, first, then I'll sort through it and find non-spoilery stuff.
the brainstorms have kind of replaced my journals. Though, I could always do a brainstorm dump, say, every five brainstorms? Or, just every journal. Idk. I'll do them with the journal this time, but what about for the rest of the time? Thoughts?

"We're the same. But we're complete opposites."


"Ugh, where's Xemnas? I need to shove a blade through his gut again."
you probably all know who's saying that but it's not like it's spoilers


Oh my gosh it's the Namiku bickering telepathically thing omg
This scene was hilarious to write because the argument started out loud but then they just fell into making noises at each other because they were communicating telepathically and it was faster than speaking aloud
And it was also kind of hard to write because I COULDN'T KEEP UP WITH THEM!! they were just thinking to fast saldkfj
Anyway here's what they say out loud. Because it's funny and not spoilers. (The argument is but the noises/barely started sentences certainly aren't. They can't be.)


“I didn’t say anything.”
“No, but you-”
“No-”
“Namine-”
“I don’t-”
“I heard-”
“Well, what-”
“It’s-” pause “Please!”
“I know.”
“It’s just-”
“What-”
“I-”
“It-”
“Well-”
“Just-”
“No-”
“Ex-”
“I-”
“And-”
“Don’t-”
“You-”
“I-”
“Yes-”
“I didn’t-”
“Crossed-”
“This-”
“-is-”
“have-”
“Do-”
“No,”
“I wasn’t-”
“I didn’t even-”
“You were-”
“The fact-”
“You would be too!”
“You’ve got-”
“Now I-”
“Yes you did!” (And the argument ends there)

lol. Know what would be fun? If you tried to finish those sentences. Why not drop a comment below, or send me a note on tumblr with that in it?
If it helps, Namine both starts and ends this, and I'm pretty sure that each line swaps between her and Riku.


"Ignoring something isn't the same as coming to terms with it"
idk what that is it's just written down in my journal. I don't remember if I pulled it from anything or not


Oh look book 5 plotting!


Aerith: You alright?
Riku: Hmm? Oh. Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine
Aerith: You sure? You look a little pale...


Lol!! This was kind of random but I just stumbled on a little snippet of something I'd written, and Sora got something right, and I wrote that he dances slightly in his excitement and the mental image of him dancing slightly was funny so I thought I'd share it
I mean can't you just see him dancing with excitement?
I can't tell you what he's dancing about though because it's spoilers like you would not believe but i'll get to book 5 eventually and it'll make sense then

quoting time!!
(most of these are from tumblr wheee~~!!)

"The truth, and reality, hurts. So we lie. To everyone, but especially to ourselves."

Oh whoops there was only one in that chunk. Huh.

OH HEY! Have I mentioned? I mentioned on tumblr. Rewriting Nothing's Fair is officially a thing. I have a little sequence or two plotted out on paper
And I'm so happy I can write more for R without bringing her back from the dead or anything because she wasn't dead in Nothing's Fair *dances*


ooh there's more tumblr quotes!

"Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I'm never not thinking of you"

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness"

"The thing I'm most afraid of is me. Of not knowing what I'm going to do. Of not knowing what I'm doing right now."

"It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold onto something, or someone, the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back."
I don't think I reblogged this on tumblr, but I should've, because this is my Riku so much it hurts asldkfj

"When I say 'I love you' it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, and how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what and who you are."
~this is a quote from Joss Whedon
like omg. It's on tumblr here
I only have a link to this one because I remembered someone I recognized said it and I wanted to see who

"One of the cruelest things you can do to another person is pretend you care about them more than you really do"
*sniffles*

"Crying doesn’t have to be bad, and it’s certainly better than keeping those negative feelings bottled up. Quarantining your emotions only makes them more destructive when that dam finally does break loose. (And it will, eventually—nobody can keep it held back forever.)
You don’t have to be the strong one, because crying isn’t a sign of weakness"
~this lovely quote is from bowtied (on tumblr), who is an absolutely wonderful Eleventh Doctor RPer. So I might as well say that the Doctor said this? Lol.

"Even in our weakest position, in our worst way possible, when death is right in our faces…
I will protect you
I will follow you
We will make it out together, I can promise that
Just don’t forget that I need you"
~I copied this down from what was I think a Sherlock post. Aha. It practically screamed Namiku at me so of course I wrote it down

"I just want to run to you and I hope you know that every time I don't I almost do"

tumblr has the most amazing quotes sometimes omg

"The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do."

"Put down the knife you're wielding
let high stone walls fall away"
~this is actually a line from a song. "Sing Loud" by Alpha Rev which is actually a really amazing song why don't you go listen to it?
the line really reminded me of Riku. I thought I'd let you know that.


Hey look an actual quote from my fic

"I want... I wanna run away with you."
"What? Roxas, don't be silly!"
"I'm not. Being silly."
~I mentioned rewriting Nothing's Fair was officially a thing, right? yeah.


Aw Ven you're so adorable stop it!
not posting because a) it's book 5 and b) I probably will scrap it anyway because it's kind of out of character. He's been hanging around Cole too much



FicxNotafic Crossover

Hey look, an AU notafic crossover scene! Lol, I had this scene happen and I spawned like three different ways it could go. It's ridiculous!!
And I love what happens because Edd shows up (even though it's for hardly any reason hence the AU) and character development is done on him and it's so exciting. My problem is if Edd shows up, it totally kills the rest of the crossover and lskajdf

Thought I'd bug you about it.

"You push everyone away. You always do. And this time you've pushed too hard. And now he's not coming back."

~this actually isn't from the actual notafic crossover sequence but it's funny (and technically a crossover)
Shad: I remember you! You're that rude guy!
Colin: Uhm, you were the one being rude, not me
(Shad protests)
Colin: baccharo
Shad: Am not!
Colin: Are too!
Shad: By definition, I am not!!

~yeah lol that comes from a break room scene that I haven't gotten around to posting because I haven't finished it



Notafic

I love this quote!!:
"What are you doing?"
"Cole's hallucinating. I can't figure out how to calm him down, so I'm fighting his invisible monsters instead."

大丈夫
Daijoubu
This is a phrase I learned from the Days movie. It means "Okay" or "alright", but can be translated as "I'm alright" or "it's alright" and if you say daijoubuka? that's "Are you okay?"
Japanese really hardly uses pronouns it seems

Another phrase I learned was わかった, or wakatta, which is, again, "okay", but it's more like "okay" as in "yes"

I also learned そだな, sodana, which is "that's true." (or something similar I guessed that from context)
Xion always says そだね, sodane, though, so idk if it's some gender thing that Japanese has I'm no expert


aldskj look quotes from the Merlin fanfic I'll never write


~and now lets pull quotes from the brainstorms!!

Brainstorms

Okay, so the first half of the first one is stuff from the notafic crossover that I'll actually probably scrap

And then the second half
the second half

I will have to turn the second half into a scene and post it someday. It's technically another crossover with my notafic but this one's got Laura and asldkfj the character development and she and 19 argue and it's so perfect!


And lets see... the second brainstorm...

Ah! this is all full of AU notafic crossover stuff. That scene I previously mentioned that went three different ways. I know there aren't any quotes from it


Third brainstorm...

Just character development on Ven which I might scrap due to him taking a lot after Cole and it's almost out of character for Ven? I can't decide


Fourth brainstorm

Ah... all of it's spoilers.


Fifth one...

Ah, right, not stuff I can post either. But there is one other document I think I can milk quotes from. It started off as brainstorm, but then I labeled it as something different so I could find it easier

See, the thingy is an AU crossover between mine and magik's universes as I'm prone to think up and it's like. I don't know I like it a lot. I can't convince magik to make it canon or anything, though, because it actually contradicts my canon I couldn't have it not contradict canon with the set of characters it includes. They were bound to throw everything off

But it's still like the best thing ever. I'll have to post it once I'm far enough in Dead Inside.

Aw man, I can't milk quotes from it! I'd love to post quotes from it, but I'm on really shaky grounds with the characters it concerns, so...

I will post it eventually. Because it is hilarious.

~

Anyway! That's all! Whoooo That was fun.

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